The Anti-Diet

I hate diets. I hate the word diet. I hate dieting. I also hate the term ‘lifestyle change’.

We all know that we’re changing our lifestyle to accommodate ourselves to be more healthier when we do things like this.. What is th

is? See below.

How My Life Has Changed:

-No more eating out as much as I used to
-Drinking is not a normal part of my daily life anymore
-Binging on chocolates and cookies is almost unknown to me
-Most of my time is now spent at home trying not to eat my face off and/or at the gym taking Group Power classes and regular gym time
-I’m more conscious of what I’m putting into my body (calories in, calories out!)
-Still having a problem with the coffee (it’s a hard habit to kick, but I don’t think I’m going to give up on it. I can do a couple cups a day.)

I’m adopting a clean eating concept. It’s not new, I’ve done it before.  It’s hard, but then it becomes.. not so hard. You adapt to the changes that YOU create for yourself. That’s the most wonderful thing! It’s challenging, but worth it.

Here I am, 6 pounds lost, but I know that I can do more. It becomes a rush, you want to do more, you want to be healthy! I have a history of Hashimoto’s disease in my family, and I got hit with the bad thyroid stick.

Here is a list of supplements I take each day:

Chromium Picolinate
MegaZyme (stomach enzyme)

And 2-3 times a week, my significant other injects me with B12.


Suckerpunching Myself (but I get back up.)

In December 2006 I was unhappy. I mean, I was unhappy for years before that, but in December 2006 I decided to take charge of my life.

In January 2007 I joined a program called Fit & Fab at my local gym. It consisted of working out (wow!) and ‘eating clean’. In May 2007, I left my husband. I was fit, I was down to a weight I actually felt myself in. For so many years I was overweight, unhappy, and stuck in a black hole that wasn’t my life. I was coasting through life. I was living a double life. I was living as the wife, and I was living as what I wanted my life to be. These 2 can’t live together.

(When I look at this photo I want to cry. I want to be that girl again.)

I had this new body, I had a new boyfriend, I was living life.. I was feeling good, confident and ready to DO SOMETHING. I was also drinking heavily. I was self destructive. I did things that someone should never do to themselves or the person they love.  But damnit, I looked good.

In 2008, I moved to Vancouver for a new job, I was a size 10, damn I was feeling good. A new job AND I was still maintaining my body somewhat.

Then it all went downhill. Those months of coasting on just drinking and barely eating, the constant boxing classes I was taking (it hurt it hurt so good).. it just caught up with me. I started eating whatever I wanted, I had numerous health problems and I just went downhill. I was unhappy again. Gaining weight, feeling down on myself, trying anything to lose a few pounds.

Fast forward, here we are today.

I am unhappy with my body. I have been for a long time. We can never be happy with what we have, right? We have self image and body issues. We could all be more thinner, prettier and smarter.

I just want to be healthy. I haven’t gone one day without some sort of health problem. On Sunday I decided that this was it.. I’m getting my body back, I’m getting my health back and I will no longer not care. I care about myself and that’s why I’m doing this..

There is no silly challenge or time frame or anything, I am just going to do it and go with the flow. I am going to eat better, drink less and work out more. I am going to take my supplements every day, my b12 injections 3 times a week and I am going to do this.

People will love you no matter your size, but if you are not happy, then.. you change. And that’s what I’m going to do. I don’t want to keep having to wear swim shorts at the pool, I want to wear a bikini again. I don’t want to keep having to tug down my shirt to hide my stomach fat. I don’t want to have to wear spanx and/or tights all the damn time.

Look at that stomach. JUST LOOK AT IT. Now I can’t even see my own vagina. Barely.

Blog More, Talk Less (Satire).

The subject is a joke, but it’s what popped up in my mind.

Listen, I want to blog more in 2011.

But sometimes when I start writing, I really do not think people want to read about my misadventures with people on the bus, or how afraid I am of ambulance sirens now (I live on a street, where the ambulance route is, and I wonder when they’ll stop at my house again).

So, my friends, today we are going to do some trivia. Well, it’s not really trivia, because I’m not going to ask you any questions, but I’m going to tell you some things about myself. Really, who doesn’t like hearing about me? I am the best.

There is no question about it, I like to torture my cat. Sometimes I put socks on her head. Maybe one day the SPCA will let me volunteer.

Why, just the other night I whacked her in the head with a Wii remote. I was playing tennis and I thought I whacked the table, but no, it was her poor kitty head. She survived, though maybe a little more dumber than she was.

I like to cook as documented in this photograph below:

This was Boxing Day in Calgary. I cooked for my boyfriends family 2 days in a row. I like to cook, as you can see. I have big birthing hips and no children of my own, my ass is the size of a pretty small mountain peak and my arms have seen better days. BUT I HAVE A PRETTY FACE!

As of  last Monday, I am back at the gym. But now this week is so busy, I won’t be back until Saturday. My goal is to lose 20 pounds by April. If I can do it. I also have taken up a class called Group Power, taught by the lovely Beki Liang. My legs still hurt after 3 days. I can barely walk. This makes me want to do it even more!

Also, I have to admit, I love shooting out the shocker. I know it’s not the most mature thing to do, but it’s funny after you’ve had a few drinks.

This is Richard. I’ve known Richard for about 9 years. Last fall I introduced him to a lovely girl & they fell in love. Her name is Kyrsten. I will forever be bragging about this match made in heaven for the rest of my life.

This is Kyrsten. See? Gorgeous.

In other news, I have a really good feeling about this year. My debt (OH MY DEBT) will be paid off this year. I can start to plan more on travel destinations in my future. I’ve made a really good core group of friends in the past year who are all so different and talented.

I’m just going to be happier. I have to be. I want to be.

2010 – What it Was – In Pictures

A little synopsis in pictures for 2010!

January 2010:

We rang in the New Year at the Billo’s house!

February 2010:

The Olympics came to Vancouver and Darcy’s sister Dara came to visit. I took her downtown to watch someone light a torch!

The Cauldron in Coal Harbour.

And a certain little girl (my stepdaughter) named V turned 3!

March 2010:

My earlobe split down the middle from stretching and heavy earrings. So I got a translobe piercing until my surgery.


April 2010:

April was Easter and I was happy to celebrate another year with these beautiful creatures in my life!

Kimli and Ed came over to the house I pet sit at and I’m including them because I LOVE THEM BOTH! And because Kimli is a light in my life.

In April, Darcy & I took our 2nd trip together to Vegas and stayed at the Golden Nugget! It was hot and a trip full of food, drink & fun! I lost ten pounds before I left to LV so I could eat it all back (sick, I know!)

May 2010:

In May my cousin, aunt and I went to Seattle where we went to see Kate Nash perform!

My cousin Amanda and I ate our first set of oysters that we actually enjoyed at Steelhead Diner.

I met a new friend named Inga & her family. I also met her Llama’s (if you know me, you know I absolutely LOVE llama’s!)

June 2010:

In June, I had the privilege of hosting my ex-husband’s Mom, sister and niece around Vancouver and Victoria! We had a great time. I am extremely close to them, so it was so good to see them again.

July 2010:

July 2010 was our ‘anniversary’! 3 years!

One of my greatest accomplishments of 2010 was setting up my very good friend Richard (who lived in Toronto at the time) with my new friend Kyrsten. A match made in glorious love! He moved from Toronto to Vancouver to be with her. My heart!

I met some pretty fantastic girls in 2010. Cyndi & Jenna being 2 of them!

Portia Billo was in born in July!

The girls & I at Lynn Valley (we not only went in July, but the whole summer!)

August 2010:

I didn’t take a lot of photographs in August, but I did take one of Maia!

Maia turned 12 years old in August. I’ve had her since I was 19!

In August I also moved out of the place I was sharing with a friend who had helped me out and let me move in when I moved from Langley to Vancouver. Unfortunately her personality and my personality didn’t mix very well and I moved out and into my boyfriend’s place! So far, so good!

September 2010:

In September, I celebrated 2 years at my job.

September was my trip to California!

I hadn’t been since 2006 and my ex husband’s family lives there, including several of my friends! I used to live in California as well, so it was like going back ‘home’.

Highlights of that trip was finally meeting Corbett, Brooke, Jodi, Rachael, Megan, Therea and seeing my best friend Julie again! Other highlights were the SF Zoo and Tranny Bingo as well as being able to drive all over LA and SD!

Rachael and Chihuly the day before her wedding.

I got to meet Dallas Raines at Tranny Bingo @ Hamburger Mary’s in West Hollywood!

My best friend Julie & I 🙂

Megan & I at the Santa Monica Pier!

Jodi, Theresa and Me!

Corbett inside the 826 Valencia store in SF.

Brooke and I in San Diego.

I rode the ferris wheel for the FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE. I was scared.

October 2010:

I dressed up for the first time in my adult life for Halloween.. Devil in a Red Dress.

My good friend Brianna asked me to take her engagement photographs. This is Brianna & Jeff in Stanley Park. I was so honoured that she asked ME to do them!

November 2010:

I had about 7 ladies out for ‘Girls Night Out’ in November. It was fun.

We took a ‘family’ portrait!

December 2010:

I spent another year with this man whom I love!

We went to Calgary for Christmas. I got sick with Campylobacteriosis!